i just dont know how you do this ? making me love you so much when i should hate you ? you're making me miss you when i should be happy that youre not here ?! making me think of you while youre not thinking of me ? making me feel sorry for things you did wrong ? i never got it, i never understood how i coulda feel that way, and honestly how should i really get it ? you never make me understand how you act, are - just never ! you always pretend to care, to be here for me no matter what, but truth is you always hurt me. youre the one always making me cry and feel guilty. tell me why am i stupid letting you do this with me ? . ...
let me tell you, because i love you! . yes i'm dumb enough to love you that much to get hurted by everything you do, by every text message you tell me to call me but never call! i' stupid to stay up till 5 am only to hear your voice, only to talk to you, ? okey but why am i doing this ? imma tell you. ..
cause i love you.
why is it that i always need to be the first one ? i always apologize first, i always call first, i text first, i do every shit first but what does that help me ? Right. Nothing! i always tried to make you be proud of me but you just dont see it. i tried so hard, to make you know how much i miss you, but you don't ! and all this has to happen cause you never see problems, to you its all okey, right? . ..
and why dont i quit that ? i really dont know this time, i really dont why i have to go thru this pain all over again, every time we fight everytime you dont answer my calls, or texts. i'm so sick of all this, and please believe me i would wish to quit but i cant and you know why ?
CAUSE I LOVE YOU ! . ...
peaceout x
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