a look back.

i sometimes wonder how everything would be now if we'd never broke up, if you just never changed to who you are today. you've been my first real love and i wished it would never end, but it did...

i had such a wonderful time with you and i loved you so much, i would've done everything for you but it was never enough for you and that hurts me. you never saw it, and i guess that's the problem we had, you've not been here to know what i did for you. i was about to leave all behind to just be with you, just leave my family my friends, my job - my whole life just for you. 

it wasn't good enough for you, and that was so disappointing, it was yes! today it's not anymore cause i don't love you anymore, i'm finally over you after 7 months and i thank god for helping me thru this hard time. only he knows how bad it was. i struggled so hard, and you? what did you do? huh? ..

who knows if you even loved me, if you even thought about being with me for the rest of your life, when i think back today, i don't believe you anymore, i guess this was all just a bad bad dream. and i wish i'd woke up earlier but i didn't. i was blind for love for such a long time but now i'm up and i know who you really are. you're nothing else than a fake, stupid asshole and whatever? i'm honest now, and i wouldn't lie about you anymore that you're the best that ever happened to me, cause you're not! 

you're fucking immature, you think you're something and you're being a king, but guess what you're aint a shit!

i said it once to you and i would repeat it again and again > khool ikhre shedana! 

these are the words you deserve and nothing else to be exactly with you!!!

you stole 2 years of my life, and i fucking hate you for every day. i told you that i regret the day of your birth.

i regret, every look at you, every touch and every kiss! i regret i though you'd be the one for me! 

i hope one day, and this day will come when i'll stand in front of you and i will laugh in your face, and say: look at me, and then look at you - can you see it now? 

i'm just too good for you! 

i thought so many times about these words, but i'm sure about it now!

i'm over you, and i wish god will forgive you for breaking my heart so many times, and jumping on it!

.. and guess what after all this shit, i still love you!

peaceout x