Cindy♥

. ..i don't really know how to start this, it's not easy for me to talk about you, i mean it is but finding the right words isn't! since i know you, you became one of the most important persons in my life. i talk about you every day, and i don't care if i bore people with telling them how gorgeous you are. if i start talking about you i never stop, cause there is so much to say about you, and who ever thought i would find someone like you! you're my cousin, but you know i don't see you as that, i see you as my sister, as my best friend. i guess for some reasons i don't even know why i love you that much, we fight a lot, we may annoy each other sometimes, and we disappointed each other and all this in not even 2 years. but you know what, sisters are like that right? i mean i fight with my brother and sisters here too, but even tho we fight and all this i love them more than anything else and would die for them any day, and that's the same for you. because i love you so much, and you been always so sweet to me, and i know i could tell you everything. i trust you like no one else and i hope you know that.

even it's not always been easy with us the last time, and we been goin thru so much and nomatter what i said or you said i always knew i can't stay mad at you for long! 


there were people asking me why i still do this, why i still hurt myself with missing you, why i don't just delete you out of my life, and i thought about it, but you know what i could never. loosing her would, well i can't even tell what that would do with me, and i hope that will never happen! people also asked me what's so special about you, i always answer : the thing that's special about her is that i don't need to tell what it is, cause SHE just is! i mean there were a lot of people in my life, i used to trust, and though i would die without them. but in the end they all disappointed me, let me down! but there's something about her i know she would never let me down! 

i actually wouldn't know what to do without her, and i don't care if we fight every day, as long as i know in the end everything will be good again. cause i don't wanna miss her in my life, it's hard enough not to see her. ..

and well since i know you, omg so much happened between us, so many nights we stayed up sitting in the garage talking, laughing and sometimes there were tears. i always remember how much fun we had together, and so many times i wish i could go back to this. everytime i had to leave you it broke my heart, and only god knows how many nights i couldn't sleep cause of crying, when i was back home. well i guess this is something only i know, and i know nobody understands that cause when i talk about you i know how people sometimes think i'm weird holding on somebody i see for 2 weeks a year. but that's okey cause nobody needs to understand me, i don't even care, cause all i need to know is that i really love my cousin nomatter what.

cindy benjamin

and i miss her, everyday, everyday i can't see her.

and that hurts so much, i really hate that! i swear to god i would

give everything just for a hug from you cindy.

i never told you but, you're my heart! and i won't ever let you down, i'm always here for you

cause when you're sad, i'm sad.

you mean the world to me, i hope you know that!♥